63 Hours of Hermitage

Well, this weekend has been near maximum hermitage. Came home Friday evening, and I've only opened the door for food delivery. I reorganized the Starry Wisdom library, I've watched a lot of horror movies, read. Caught up (kind of) on sleep. Yesterday was little to no anxiety, today isn't quite as nice. Tomorrow is back to the job, with patching and probably a number of meetings about the migration. I really don't have updates from my last post on the subject. I've got a plan, and a schedule as a framework. So we'll see how it goes.

Non-work related stuff, less than 2 months til HPLFF in Portland. Looking forward to visiting Innsmouth West. This week I need to drop my car off at the dealer for general maintenance, plus the usual allergy shots. Next weekend 'Meg' gets released, giant sharks and giant squid. I'm so there. Not much of anything else in the works. Or really to talk about. So I'll call this a post.

Well I thought last week was bad

The current state of the Fox in regards to work. It's copied from Facebook, so it might not be completely coherent, or grammatically correct.

Last night:
Tomorrow morning is probably going to be interesting, in the 'may you live in interesting times' way. Cross tentacles and have kittens on standby if it goes pearshaped.

Today:
Well, I got my answers. Branch of the company I've been working at is being sold. The buyer of the branch has elected to not bring me along permanently. I will continue to work here through the migration til it is complete, or 1 year, which ever comes first. There is no guarantee I will have a position with corporate at the end of that period. If one is found, I keep working for parent, otherwise it's a severance package and a good luck in my future endeavors. .

Not doing good at all. Not one little bit. I know it's life in a big corporation, but I still feel like shit scraped off a shoe. Please no advice right now, or 'you know you're a good employee' or other well meant platitudes. The sudden reality check I just is going to be louder than anything else right now. Caring and kitten/critter pictures much more welcome.

Later today:
Working from home the rest of the day. Did figure out that these changes mean that two of my PITA projects are either going to halt or drop in scope. Also, various local people have pointed out that they're pulling for newcorp to bring me over because I'm a valuable resource (and I fit in well). So that helps. Still going to update the resume, and spend part of the new few weeks documenting out the weird stuff that only I do. In case of being run over by bus, or being thrown under the bus. *is a professional*

As for me care. Working from home for one. Ordered a cheesesteak for two. Weekend plans are probably going to be near/all hermiting because well, *gestures wildly at the last few weeks* I have shelves to put together, and the reorg of the library should be worked on, especially since I have a fancy respirator now to filter out the dust. Plus books, and movies, and probably some plotting and planning. Also, this will not affect my plans for the HPLFF. There's a mighty need for time with a large number of my tentacled tribe.

So, surviving, but frazzled.

Addendum. The powers that be at the local office are trying to convince newcorp that I'm a valuable member of the team, and to also bring me along. Which is appreciated. I'm not holding out a ton of hope, but when do I ever ? I guess we see what happens, and what I get done during the transition.

State of the Fox: Brainmeats and melting.

Well, I finally finished my epic series about my trip to Innsmouth. Well, such that can be spoken without violating my oaths to Dagon *wink* Outside of my trip, there hasn't been a lot of news worthy stuff going on. My emotional foo is as it usually is, variable. I've visited the pshrink recently, and nothing much has changed from last visit. I know things aren't perfect in my brain, but I'm able to function, hold down a job, and most all the other 'normal' activities.

Work is kind of stressful. There is debate on what my role is, between local and corporate. And I'm stuck in the middle, not really knowing where I fit. Uncertainty is not my friend. It could be worse, I'm 98% sure I'll have a job either way. I just wish I knew what I'd be doing by the end of the year.

That stress, plus the way reality seems to be going, has been making my brainmeats wig out. I'm anxious, a lot. My depression is more or less the same, a little higher. I spend a lot of time at night trying to run imaginary scenarios to relax. Focus is spotty at best, even with books. I was able to focus some on playing chess, but my game has dropped rather. Luckily I can go from computer: beginner to computer: clueless, so I don't have to feel bad about being owned by a computer as much. So what am I going to do ? Well I took today off as a mental health day, got a bunch of chores done first thing this morning, and I've been watching horror flicks. Tomorrow is much the same, with an eye doctor visit in the afternoon. And Sunday is also kind of the same idea, with a viewing of 'Equalizer 2'. I'm also going to work on VM updates, low level geek stuff, remind myself that computers can be fun. Then hopefully on Monday I'm somewhere back to 'normal'.

Otherwise, life is mostly trying to survive the summer. We're in a crazy heatwave (even for Texas in July). 110 temps until next Tuesday, when it drops to a more normal 100. *eyeroll* I really wish I didn't live in crazy heat land. Though it seems that most of the US is also in crazy hot weather. I'm wondering if I could get a good internet connection in Greenland.

So that's about all I have right now. I wanted to write less brainmeats and more geek stuff, but that's what came out. I am going to try to write more often, I've even rearranged my desktop layout and vim settings to make it easier. We'll see. Via con Cthulhu everyone.

First Post of the Year

Well it's the new year. First week of the new year has been kind of nuts. New Years Day was friend time and book hunting. Have had a lot of trouble getting up in the mornings to go to work. But each day was a little easier. Work itself has been a kind of mixed bag, spent most of Friday troubleshooting a Linux issue with one of the other groups at Carcosa Corp. Lots of 'why do you do $x, and $y and...huh that's odd'. Think I figured out the issue for the client, but waiting on their testing which isn't quick.

WEekend has pretty much just been movies, books and sleep. Got the chores done too, well most of them. Need to put together stuff for the work week, have to deal with my car's registration, and I should probably pack up the work laptop...because given how fuzzy I am on Monday mornings, I probably would show up sans laptop. Work week will be busy, first patches of the new year...and boy do I have some big things to deal with. (see computer news in the last week for details). No plans for next weekend as of yet, probably will need some more hermit time post patching/general work week. But I also want to see people, possibly people with cats. I miss cats.

Forgot I'd planned on work foo tonight. Got reminded a while ago when one of the tester's pinged me about it. The brain needs an upgrade, or I need a keeper. I'm going to go ahead and finish this post, since I've been working on it since Saturday.

Day Three at #newjob

Day three was alright. Got some stuff setup, did 90% of an exchange foo change, we were unable to test it due to bigger issues coming up at the end of the day. First real experience with Powershell, I'm pretty sure it will make more sense than the Windows GUI to me. Also started reading up on Ansible, which they use. No cables, which is a plus.

Came home after a quick store run, had to deal with Aetna insurance, which has upped my stress level. I feel like yelling at people, but I was good and didn't scream at the CS person. It should be fixed, well for January. Then I have to call back in Feb, then maybe in March will the autobilling be fixed. *facetentacle*

Oh well, it's done. Tomorrow is Friday, Friday good. No real plans for the weekend, I think I'll mostly be at home and vegging. It's not been a bad week, just so much change. And on that, I'm going to change into a pumpkin. Night gang.

Day Two at #newjob

Day two was alright. A little harder to wake up, work itself was mostly ok. Two meetings, more tinkering with Outlook/Exchange, and a case of the flashbacks. One of the other admins asked me if I could help him with something...

Can I help run some cable?

*facetentacle*

As most of you will recall, I hate running cable. Least favorite task by far. But, Admin#2 is a nice guy, and it's day 2, so I put on my positive face and we got to work. First time I've run cable under a raised floor. Had flashbacks to 'Aliens' when I had to stick my head under the floor to hand off cable. Neither of us were having fun, so we snarked about it, something I couldn't do with exboss #1 at the Pit. I did have a few ouchies, once was I was further under the floor than I thought, and I felt stuck and claustrophobia said hi. I also leaned wrong on my rib cage, and one of my ribs shifted. Owowow. Not a break, not even a bruise, just...shift = ow. Oh well, we got them done. And while it wasn't what I wanted to do, it was good to be helpful, and to have tricks up my sleeve that made things easier. Oh yeah, and duct tape is great to block where cable was hanging up. I have mad improv skills.

I left closer to 5, was chatting with coworkers. Got a little turned around trying to get to the road home, tried to find a new route. Oh well, I'm home now. Package waiting at the apartment office, and a note from some of my favorite Cthulhu folks. Going to watch some brain candy tv, eat some dinner and probably go to bookland early.

Weekend plans are to pretty much be a bum around Ch√Ęteau Innsmouth. I need to probably do a major store run...I keep wanting to do it after work, but again I'm drained (and sore). Not that I'm _needing_ anything emergency wise, I'm just running low on stuff. Maybe tomorrow or Friday, or this weekend. We'll see. Ok, going to call this a post. Catch you all later.

First day at $newjob

First day, and like most firsts, it was kind of challenging. I slept ok, got up on time without issues, stopped by the store to grab a soda and a notepad, since I didn't have any, and got to work on time. Badge to get into the building wasn't setup, but the Project Manager for my group was in, so I got in. (I should get my badge tomorrow). Had foo with my workstation, but our desktop support guy worked out a fix, and later figured out it was an image install issue. Nice workstation, i5, 8 gigs of ram, 3 monitors (one 4x3, 2 widescreen). Windows, but that's expected.

Day went by fairly quick, two meetings, one ticket pseudo assigned to me to do research on, lunch with the two other admins and the PM, and much arguing with Outlook and Exchange and SMB, fixed the SMB, gave up on the mail issues after I was there late waiting on Exchange to make up it's mind after the 3rd attempt. Came home, now I'm writing this... mostly to get things out of my skull.

The job will be...challenging for me. Not the work itself specifically, though I expect that to have it's own challenges. It's the fact that this company is run very 'Big Business', and I'm used to 'Small Business'. I'm used to fixing my own systems, installing my own software, dealing with issues on the fly, etc. New company is more structured, more belief in meetings and accountability and...general structure. This isn't bad, actually it's good...as I haven't worked like this in over a decade. It's just a little anxiety inducing to look at things their way. Luckily, I have meds for that. And I have good coworkers, and good support people (aka you guys). It will be ok. Just have to work on that being flexible thing.

So, that's day 1. I'm going to go nuke my leftover Chinese food, watch something silly, take a hot shower and crash. Catch you all tomorrowesque, when Vulpine has his first 'Stand Up' meeting.

Tomorrow it begins

Last day before I start at new job. Plan was to get up early to help set my sleep schedule. Instead I slept in under blankets. Got up after a loud thump from upstairs. My neighbors worry me some days.

I'm chilling out at home, watching 'Silence of the Lambs' right now. Not sure what else I'll do today. May continue with the Hannibal the Cannibal run, may start some other comfort flicks.

I'm probably going to be pretty disconnected for the upcoming week, at least compared to the last while. I'll probably post stuff at night when I get done with the work day, but I don't know how caught up I'll get online. Trying to keep with being professional and stuff.

Otherwise, I've kind of given myself a mulligan on this week for goals and stuff. The focus is the job, and taking care of myself post job. Not much else to say right now. Going to be quiet and calm and hopefully tomorrow will go smoothly.