Cthulhu’s CtheeseBurger and other Weirdness

Haven't had a lot to talk about. Work is still fluid, brainmeats are still iffy. Texas is still hot as blazes. Having issues with sleep, and with waking up unwanted early (6am on a Saturday is just wrong). Though on the positive tentacle, I did get almost all my chores done. On another positive tentacle, I had lunch with some nifty friends, and was reminded that I have a pretty good burger place just down a couple of roads from me. (Fuddruckers for those who care about such things. Used to go a lot with friends, and with Mom, but in the last few years I haven't gone.) Didn't get anything fancy, a 1/3rd pound cheeseburger (provolone, cheddar and swiss), steak fries, and a grape sprite. Just what the burger desires ordered.

Post food and friends, I went to a Half Price Books, only found one book that said 'you need this'. A collection of Aleister Crowley's 'Simon Iff' stories. More interested in his idea of an 'occult detective' vs Crowleyness. I also went to B&N for the first time in a few years. Was looking for the latest issue of Fortean Times. They had an issue, from July 2017. Oops. Came home after that, had some errands I thought about running, but it's too darn hot here. Came home, chilling out. Actually, I'm kind of craving another burger (and their fries). My crazed cravings.

Plans for the rest of the weekend, maybe some more errands in the morning. Maybe working on some more reorg of Château Innsmouth. Next weekend is a three day weekend, so I'll try to balance social/hermit, along with some bookstore raiding (Half Price Books 20% off weekend). In a few weeks I'll be going back to Portland for my 2nd HPLFF. Really looking forward to the gathering of the cultists, and the fun of Lovecraftian/Weird films on a big screen. Plus the Hollywood Theater in Portland is awesome. And of course, Powell's City of Books. Hopefully by then I have a plan for what path my gainful employment will take. I can hope at least. And on that note, I'm going to call this a post.

63 Hours of Hermitage

Well, this weekend has been near maximum hermitage. Came home Friday evening, and I've only opened the door for food delivery. I reorganized the Starry Wisdom library, I've watched a lot of horror movies, read. Caught up (kind of) on sleep. Yesterday was little to no anxiety, today isn't quite as nice. Tomorrow is back to the job, with patching and probably a number of meetings about the migration. I really don't have updates from my last post on the subject. I've got a plan, and a schedule as a framework. So we'll see how it goes.

Non-work related stuff, less than 2 months til HPLFF in Portland. Looking forward to visiting Innsmouth West. This week I need to drop my car off at the dealer for general maintenance, plus the usual allergy shots. Next weekend 'Meg' gets released, giant sharks and giant squid. I'm so there. Not much of anything else in the works. Or really to talk about. So I'll call this a post.

State of the Fox: Brainmeats and melting.

Well, I finally finished my epic series about my trip to Innsmouth. Well, such that can be spoken without violating my oaths to Dagon *wink* Outside of my trip, there hasn't been a lot of news worthy stuff going on. My emotional foo is as it usually is, variable. I've visited the pshrink recently, and nothing much has changed from last visit. I know things aren't perfect in my brain, but I'm able to function, hold down a job, and most all the other 'normal' activities.

Work is kind of stressful. There is debate on what my role is, between local and corporate. And I'm stuck in the middle, not really knowing where I fit. Uncertainty is not my friend. It could be worse, I'm 98% sure I'll have a job either way. I just wish I knew what I'd be doing by the end of the year.

That stress, plus the way reality seems to be going, has been making my brainmeats wig out. I'm anxious, a lot. My depression is more or less the same, a little higher. I spend a lot of time at night trying to run imaginary scenarios to relax. Focus is spotty at best, even with books. I was able to focus some on playing chess, but my game has dropped rather. Luckily I can go from computer: beginner to computer: clueless, so I don't have to feel bad about being owned by a computer as much. So what am I going to do ? Well I took today off as a mental health day, got a bunch of chores done first thing this morning, and I've been watching horror flicks. Tomorrow is much the same, with an eye doctor visit in the afternoon. And Sunday is also kind of the same idea, with a viewing of 'Equalizer 2'. I'm also going to work on VM updates, low level geek stuff, remind myself that computers can be fun. Then hopefully on Monday I'm somewhere back to 'normal'.

Otherwise, life is mostly trying to survive the summer. We're in a crazy heatwave (even for Texas in July). 110 temps until next Tuesday, when it drops to a more normal 100. *eyeroll* I really wish I didn't live in crazy heat land. Though it seems that most of the US is also in crazy hot weather. I'm wondering if I could get a good internet connection in Greenland.

So that's about all I have right now. I wanted to write less brainmeats and more geek stuff, but that's what came out. I am going to try to write more often, I've even rearranged my desktop layout and vim settings to make it easier. We'll see. Via con Cthulhu everyone.

A stack overflow on a shoggoth is nothing to laugh at, even in a small developer environment

(Title is a random quote of myself, because I couldn't come up with a fitting one out of the blue)

Well, I'm coming up on two weeks since I returned from Providence. I miss it still, but a bit of the NRE (New RealEstate Energy) has faded. Still wish I didn't live somewhere that my allergies hate. Oh well. The grass is always greener in the other city.

Real life has been well, life. Work is alright, haven't had anything big to deal with. Things get a little busier after this weekend, but nothing crazy. At home it's about the same, I had plans last weekend to do a bunch of stuff, but I stuck to chilling out at home for the most part. This weekend is socializing on Saturday, and chores and stuff on Sunday.

Read a random book on medieval cities, finished it last night. Was a sort of trip down memory lane, as my first big history nerdism was European history from post Empire to the Hundred years war. The focus was the city of Troyes around 1250, so lots of things I knew, and even more than I'd once known, and have since forgotten. Bit of a change from my usual Greco-Roman or Mesopotamian history that's my usual flavor. In the weird fiction real, I'm reading a collection I picked up at StokerCon, 'Black Pantheons' by Curtis M. Lawson. The stories are pretty good, but the last, and longest is kind of hard to read. Main character has some form of dementia, and lives in a retirement community. Yeah, that doesn't stir up memories for me at all. But still worth reading, especially for the first story and the eldritch version of Pinocchio.

So yeah, that's about it for me. Having a nice quiet Friday night, been watching 70's British horror flicks and futzing around online. Night all, and I hope everyone has a good weekend.

Been a while

Haven't had the ...whatever powers blogposts in a while. Part of it is the less than great headspace I've been in. Work is somewhat stressful, with us being short an admin, and the different groups I am matrix managed by are pulling in various ways. Brainmeats are pretty annoying too, with all my usual issues showing themselves, usually when I could really use a break.

Took a long weekend from work, off Friday through Monday, back on Tuesday. Probably one of my better decisions. I've caught up on sleep, caught up on laundry and chores and managed to rearrange bookshelves to make room for... more books. *chuckle* I expect to come back from my trip to Providence with a bunch of books, so I'm trying to make room for them. I've also spent yesterday and today updating the VM horde. New versions of Fedora, OpenSuSE and LinuxMint, so I've been busy. It's also therapeutic, I find patching to relax me.

Speaking of Providence, I leave in less than 3 weeks. Half a week of wandering Providence and nearby environs, and the StokerCon fun and games. My plans are kind of nebulous, I really should sit down and get my list of stuff down on paper (virtual). Museums and history sites, bookstores, and of course all things Lovecraft, plus whatever insanity I get up to at StokerCon. Should be a lot of fun, and I'm finally getting to go visit Grandpa Theobald's stomping grounds.

I'm about to call it a day, turn off the movies and spend the rest of the night in a book. Or several. Books that is. Hopefully tonight is restful and full of good reading, and tomorrow I get a final day of time off before back to the crazy. Wish me luck.

01/10/18 – daily stuff

09:57
More bad dreams, was living back in NY, with Mom. Dad was dead, and in the middle of the night some 'Christian Psychics' were there to tell us what Dad wanted us to do. They knew odd facts about Dad, so Mom was believing them even though I pointed out that's not hard info to find. They did something, and suddenly I was shooting all three of them, repeatedly as if they were monsters in a horror movie. While Mom sat there shocked, I dragged the bodies down to the basement and dissolved them in acid (that we just happened to keep around). Then I woke up. W! T! F!!! Dear subconscious, stop with the dead relative dreams, please ?

10:12
Also woke up with aching joints, and a meh mood. Today I need to clean some stuff up, and start the Jan patching. Also need to go to get my weekly allergy shot. Wild times.

15;34
Starting the Jan patch schedule for Carcosa Corp. So of course, I'm listening to an audiobook of 'The King in Yellow'. Lets see if I can unmask these servers...

18:22
Does the previous comment make me a 'Repairer of Replications' ?

Five dollars in The Imperial Dynasty of America currency if you get the joke. ;)

19:46
And patching done, at least the development shoggoths. Tune in tomorrow, when I do it again.

Providence, here I come!

Well, it's official. I'll be going to Providence for StokerCon this year. Actually decided to spend an entire week up there, (stoker runs from Thurs-Sunday) so I can have a few days to wander Grandpa Theobald's stomping grounds. Not staying at the 'con hotel, but I'm just a couple of blocks away at The Dean, which is where I planned to stay last time. Yay for vacation plans!

I'm also thinking I may consolidate, edit and post my more common Facebook ramblings into a daily post. Then hopefully I can turn my weekly post into something more interesting, if to no one else...me. It's easier for me to do daily rambles there. We'll see.

First Post of the Year

Well it's the new year. First week of the new year has been kind of nuts. New Years Day was friend time and book hunting. Have had a lot of trouble getting up in the mornings to go to work. But each day was a little easier. Work itself has been a kind of mixed bag, spent most of Friday troubleshooting a Linux issue with one of the other groups at Carcosa Corp. Lots of 'why do you do $x, and $y and...huh that's odd'. Think I figured out the issue for the client, but waiting on their testing which isn't quick.

WEekend has pretty much just been movies, books and sleep. Got the chores done too, well most of them. Need to put together stuff for the work week, have to deal with my car's registration, and I should probably pack up the work laptop...because given how fuzzy I am on Monday mornings, I probably would show up sans laptop. Work week will be busy, first patches of the new year...and boy do I have some big things to deal with. (see computer news in the last week for details). No plans for next weekend as of yet, probably will need some more hermit time post patching/general work week. But I also want to see people, possibly people with cats. I miss cats.

Forgot I'd planned on work foo tonight. Got reminded a while ago when one of the tester's pinged me about it. The brain needs an upgrade, or I need a keeper. I'm going to go ahead and finish this post, since I've been working on it since Saturday.

Last Post of the Year

Don't really have an end of year post, nor a post about the plans for the future. I don't have the cope to go through all the things of the last year, and I don't want to put plans down on virtual paper for the future, if 2017 taught me anything, is no plan survives contact with the Cosmic Void.

As for this New Years Eve, my original plans for movie, dinner, and a party/show in Fort Worth. But given that Ithaqua had a flying visit in, and the roads are being closed due to the lousy weather, the plans were changed to hiding at home. Given how I deal with social anxiety, this is probably for the best. Plus I rather ring in the new year with horror movies, snacks and reading.

So here's to the end of 2017, and to the beginning of 2018. May Cthulhu rise from his depths, may Yog-Sothoth open the gates, and may Scarlett Johansson finally get a Black Widow movie. Iä! Iä! and all that jazz!

Weekend of Electronic Entropy

This has been the weekend of electronics being a pain in the ass. Come home Thursday night, and my media PC is acting wonky. Can't reach the media drive via NFS. Verified the drive is readable, and NFS is running on Dagon. So I assume something got stuck, NFS is annoying that way, and reboot. Come up with a failed OS drive. Well, damn. Ok, I'd planned to swap it out with Shoggoth, my local network server that doesn't do much. Ok, so I spend my Friday off getting things moved around and hooked up. To find out sound doesn't work. Googling got me either 'use a USB sound card' or 'Sound works fine'. So I go and order a USB sound card that supports Linux with 1 day delivery. Which gets delayed Saturday, so...no media PC. I've watched a bunch of movies on my multi-region bluray player (which I had a frustrating time getting to change region til I remembered the remote control pattern).

I also planned to listen to audiobooks. My normal way to listen is on The Shining Trapezohedron (my phone), using a bluetooth speaker. So of course, what starts having issues ? Yep, the speaker is in flake mode. I verified it wasn't the phone using my bluetooth headset. *grumbles* Again, I have a work around (Audible's website), but it's bloody annoying. I like the bluetooth speaker, because I can wander around the apartment with it while doing chores. Feh.

Also, besides Amazon shipping fail, the post office has delayed two other packages due in Saturday. *sigh* But at least they managed to deliver a book of books from a Kickstarter I funded. Yay new book smell.

Otherwise, it's been a pretty lousy weekend. Not dreaming well, stressed and anxious. The holiday foo is getting to me pretty darn hard. Just have to get through the next 4 weeks. Hoping to have a better 2018. I can dream, after all.