Well it’s another week, and I’m not doing so hot. Had a relapse after last
weekend, doctor called in new antibiotics which have helped. But I still
feel pretty lousy. My lungs are really tight, I’ve been using the inhaler
a bunch. It helps, but I have a feeling I need to find a respiratory
specialist and get my lungs really checked out. Along with an allergist,
and possibly a full body transplant specialist. So if anyone is experimenting with building cyborgs, I may be your guinea pig.
I worked from home Mon-Wed. I was told rather firmly to go home since I
sounded like a TB ward. I got stuff done, but I still feel like a slacker.
*sigh* Oh, I haven’t mentioned it, but I have a new boss. Nothing bad,
just some reshuffling above my level. Going to actually meet the guy
(he works out of Atlanta, soon to be Tennessee) next week. I do kind of
like having remote managers, less of the insanity of a former employer.
Plus, me and my team mates just work well together, no real need for a
day to day watch over us kind of guy.
Due to the relapse, I’ve mentally canceled most of my weekend plans. Not
sure I want to leave the house, not sure I’ll be able to do all the chores
that are backed up either though. I really don’t know. I’m going to try
to get at least the minimum I need for survival, if I can do more, I will,
and if I can’t…well *throws tentacles in the air*
Mental health is…poor. Mom’s anniversary of her passing is next weekend,
and I’ve had lots of reminders of things in the last couple of weeks. The
pneumonia is definitely NOT helping. (Her death, for those who don’t know,
was due to a bout of pneumonia). Add to that the world news lately, and
personal issues I don’t want to go into on here, I’m really not a happy
fox. Seriously, I think the only reason I haven’t had a full on meltdown
is I’m going numb before it happens. Hiding in books, in movies. I have a
pshrink visit in a few weeks, and I sense we’ll be changing things.
In regards to the new news on Livejournal, I’m honestly not sure I give a
darn. Not that I particularly trust the Russian Federation, but there
really isn’t anything on there I’m concerned about. On the other tentacle,
they’re no longer using SSL. That’s bad, m’kay. I even tried to force it,
nope redirect to port 80. Not sure how much I want to go to DW. I already
have a blog, and I have a sort of copy of all my posts on LJ. But since
I don’t really have the tentacles to cope with a decision, I’m not going
to make one just yet.
So what am I going to do this weekend? Besides at least the bare minimum
of chores, I’m watching movies. Specifically right now ‘The Void’, which
I’ve been waiting for with major anticipation. I also picked up both
‘Alien vs Predator’ movies on bluray to complete my current collection. So
maybe Aliens marathon tomorrow, or something else. Or I may just read
all the books. I really am just going to try to relax, hopefully my lungs
will feel better, and I’ll be in a better place come Monday. I can dream
Was a weird week. Spent all of my 3 day weekend home recovering. I
cheerfully could have called in Tuesday or Wednesday as well, but I put
on my big cultist robes and went to work. Was kind of glad to see people
actually. I’m still not 100%, but I’m close (minus the perpetual allergy
argument). Mood was pretty lousy though this week. Between being sick,
a whole lot of negative memories rising to the surface, and reality being
pretty depressing. At least my subconscious eased up on me while I was
asleep, with a lack of anxiety dreams. I kind of snapped out of it
this morning, as Fridays often fix the ills in my head.
As I said last post, I’ll be back to patching on Sunday evening. Approx 30
servers this go-round, but I’ll have at least one other admin patching, and
other bodies to do support tests and verify applications. So it should be
fairly smooth. Week will be a tad short, but that’s ok. I still have social
plans for tomorrow and for Sunday prior to patching.
So what’s up in the land of Vulpine besides work and illness? Lots of books,
lots of reading. For some odd reason most of what I’ve read has been set in
London, England between 1890-1920. Originally there was no plan, but between
a couple of Mythos tales, and pastiches of Sherlock Holmes and Carnacki the
Ghost Finder, and another period fantasy bit I’ve spent a lot of mental shoe
leather wandering around London. Currently reading ‘Dust and Shadow’ which
pits Sherlock against Jack the Ripper. I’m also hoping to have a spare
weekend day in the next few weeks where I feel up to finishing up on the
rearranging of the Starry Wisdom Library and building of at least one new
bookcase. Hopefully I’ll be sans plague in time to do this before summer
hits. Bedroom also needs work, but that’s less pressing. Less books in
there. And more work.
Ok, that’s about all I have for right now. I have tons of bright ideas for
posts, but usually they get detailed just as I’m getting ready for bed.
I’m starting to think I need a voice recorder to ramble into so I remember
these quirky ideas. For now though, I’m going to enjoy my Friday night
hermit. Catch you all later.
I was going to go be social with Amythest today. Woke up this morning and
had exactly 0 tentacles for leaving the house. I’m trying to see if I can
find some, but I really think I’ll just be staying here at home.
Weird dreams again, including my agnate sibling. Something about moving,
so double odd. I also dreamed more stuff that’s from a city in my dreams,
same place that the ur-Bookstore is in, but this is a major subway/train
station, with a hub that has a lot of small shops in it. So I guess I’ll
be dreaming about the theater district next. Yeah, I dream about this
place a lot. I wonder if I’ll end up going somewhere and go ‘Oh holy crap,
this is that dream!’. Which, if it has the ur-Bookstore, may mean I’ll
finally move. My luck, it’s Unknown Kadath, and Nyarlathotep will be
there to mock me.
Finished one book and one serial story last night. So much Mythos. And I
have much more to read. Some group funded books came in, including a
collection of stories based on the writing of Ramsey Campbell, one of my
favorite authors. So that should be a lot of fun. As I said yesterday, I
need to do some reviews. Maybe I can knock out a few today.
Not much else, work this week should be busy. I know I’m spending a few
hours tomorrow dealing with telco stuff. I’m thinking I may work from home
one day so I can sit down and focus on one project from the comfort of
Château Innsmouth. We’ll see, I’d like to do it Friday, so I can work
til late if I get into a groove, but we already have one admin on PTO that
day. We’ll see what the boss thinks. Ok, that’s enough ramble for today.
Catch everyone later. Oh yeah, enjoy your Superb Owls.
Quick post about tomorrow’s Inauguration of the American POTUS-to-be. I’m
going to be avoiding Facebook without a ton of filters in place, and
probably twitter utterly. I’m going to go head down into work and try to
knock out a bunch of stuff, then leave and depending on tentacle levels
either take myself out for some ‘Us’ time, or come home and hermit and
watch comfort movies, with the above mentioned filters. I have a possible
idea of posting an imperial arseload of positive stuff, things I like,
books I’ve enjoyed, the insanity of some of the podcasts I listen to.
Kind of balance out the anger, the sadness, the stupidity that will fly.
So, do whatever you feel the need to do that gets you through the night
(and hurts everyone, including yourself, the least). Prepare for me being
as silly and weird as possible, filter if needed. And on Monday, back to
(Yes, this also means I won’t be discussing any insanity. If you REALLY want my opinion, and you probably don’t, email/message me, I may answer on Monday.)
Going to be a weird week for me. Most of the weekend was spent in some
degree of sinus pain/pressure. Worked last night on some Carcosa Corp stuff,
which wasn’t bad, just took a while. Today came into work a tad late,
but no random stuff being broke due to last night’s work. I have bad luck
with making late night changes that look fine, but in the cold light of
day (and customer activity) you find the errors and mis-estimates. Not
today, other than adjusting firewall rules to take the additional databases
The weird starts with DR testing at work this week. I’m the guinea pig,
as the new guy, I’ve been kind of deliberately kept in the dark, so when
they hand me the documentation, we can see if there are flaws in it, that
someone who’s familiar with the process would just be able to fill in.
We’ll see how well this works. I’m kind of anxious because, hey, new
situation. But it should be ok, or at least be educational.
I also have a friend going in for a what’s supposed to be a minor surgical
procedure. All should be ok, and it should be a day procedure. But of
course, I’m twitchy. Don’t like my friends in hospitals. *sigh*
Add in Friday’s expected political insanity, I expect the internets to be
utterly awash in hatred and anger. So I’ll probably avoid much discussion,
set filters to maximum, and maybe spend the weekend trying to translate
the Voynich Manuscript. Or go to art museums and bookstores. Or binge
on cheesy 80s horror movies. Or get on social media, and find 2000 more
groups from all over the spectrum to block…
So this week will be a tad challenging. But there are perks. And books,
and people who care. Oh yeah, and Cthulhu. Always good to have an eldritch
monstrocity that drives you insane in your corner. So on that tentacled note,
I’ll ramble more later. I’m going to try to post more here, get back in
my blogging habit, vs miniposts on Facebook.
I’m doing mostly ok mentally, the depression hole I fell into for the holidays
has mostly passed. Just in time for my yearly asskicking DeathCold ™.
Was out of the office 2 days last week. At least this time it’s not
technically a DeathCold ™, it’s allergies of insane levels. I realized
today, Texas is treating me like a foreign (of the damn Yankee variety) body,
and it’s using pollen as antibodies. No idea when I’ll be back to
‘normal’. The urge to flee the state and move somewhere without trees is
strong. Greenland or Antarctica. *le sigh*
Work is good, I’m doing some upgrade foo Sunday night. Next week will be
hopping. Second payday was today, yay income. Still like my coworkers a
bunch, both my team and the groups we worth with. So that’s a major plus.
Slowly, but surely, the weird stressors from the Shoggoth Pit are fading.
In non-work stuff, I’ve been on a religion kick, mostly the minority sects
of the Middle East (Yazidis, Zoroastrian, and other stuff I’d never heard of),
as well as Gnostic foo. In my fuzzy brain I’m turning this stuff into head
canon for Mythos, as I often do. I’ll probably dig into Hermeticism in
the future for much the same thing. NeoPlatonic Cthulhu Cultists, next on
Fox. Waiting mostly patiently for a new book called ‘Winter Tide’ by
Ruthanne Emrys. Things from the Deep Ones point of view, which I always
appreciate. The first 5 chapters are online Tor.com, as well as the first story in the series,
Litany of Earth. Go forth and do honor to Mother Hydra and Father Dagon.
Upcoming plans, some socializing with the Ufies tomorrow, Sunday will be
Amythest time before the work that evening. After that, not a lot of real
plans. Then it’s mostly work and books and geekery til the summer. Then
I’m going on my first cruise, from Seattle to Alaska, by way of Canada.
Looking forward to a new adventure on the high seas. And if timing, job
and finances work out, I’m also going to try to go to either the NecronomiCon
in Providence, or back to the HPLFF in Portland. Yay traveling fun and
games. And bookstores, I have them already picked out. *grin* Yeah, I
have my priorities. And tonight’s priority is finish my Friday the 13th
mini-marathon, read stuff, and sleep in tomorrow. Happy weekend to all,
and to all a good night.
Well, it’s 2017. New year started, old year in the rearview mirror. The
old year wasn’t that horrid for me, minus the holiday near meltdown.
Job has been good, and good for my coping skills. I wasn’t nearly as
social as usual this last year, nor have I done as much computer geekery
as I used to. Still keeping up with the books and bad movies though.
As is traditional for New Years Day, I’ve spent today doing the things I
want to have happen more of in the new year. So bad movies, buying books,
petting cats (doing critter care for some friends that are out of town),
sleeping in, and computer geeking. Hoping it leads to good and nifty things.
Last night I went to a comic/geek convention, didn’t do much besides some
shopping, hanging out with friends, and attempting to go to the ‘parties’
in the evening. Figured out that I’ve gotten old. At one I wanted to
yell ‘Turn that crap down’, and at the VIP party I listened to a decent
cover band get mangled by lousy sound engineering. I cut out around 11,
to avoid the drunks in Dallas, but they were already out in force. Came
home, watched the year roll over. I did manage to find the only Cthulhu
stuff in the ‘con. (A new dice game, that had cool tshirts, and a tshirt
vendor who had a HPL shirt that I didn’t own), and a movie producer who
aims to recreate 50’s B movies. So I had to get two. Was fun, but not
really my kind of ‘con. Nothing on the tracks caught my attention, and
most everything was comics or Harry Potter. Oh well, not every convention
can be the HPLFF.
Really no plans for tonight, besides continuing with my superstition. I’m
off work tomorrow, and I’ll spend most of it doing the chores I’m not doing
today (laundry, cleaning, store run) Then it’s back to work. I don’t have
any New Years resolutions, I’m weird and do resolutions around my Spawning
So that’s about it. I may do a review of 2016, or I may not. All depends
on what I get done tomorrow, and how many tentacles I’m left with, along
with how much I want to dive into the last year. Might be better to just
aim forward. But on that note, hope it’s a good year to everyone. Talk to
Not feeling all that independent today. Stayed up late last night reading
a fancy dead tree Mythos novel I got recently. Slept oddly, dreams that
made me very confused when I woke up. Didn’t really get out of bed til
around noon. Did get messages from the Musketeers, they’re safely in
I really don’t want to leave Château Innsmouth today. So I’m just going to
hang out at home. Finishing up the great rip fest of the dvds I got.
I’m feeling anxious and out of sorts. I may go read, or put on a movie,
I don’t know. What ever I do, I’ll try to be chill. Tentacles and chill,
how to spend a day off. Ok, that’s enough rambling.
Well Sunday was pretty decent. I got up around the usual time, bummed
around Château Innsmouth for a while. Headed out to hang out with
friends, with a side trip to the flagship Half Price Books in Dallas.
Oh lord, I went nuts, a ton of DVDs and blurays, and a number of books
for the Mythos collection. I really need to get a couple of new bookcases.
before my collection explodes. My credit card may be crying.
Went up to hang out with P and J
Watched the 2nd and 3rd Poltergeist flicks, which I haven’t seen since
I was a kid. Not great, but not bad. I remember them being much worse.
Then, because we’ve inflicted a ton of bad movies on the P
he picked ‘Mumford’ which was a very odd and quirky flick about a therapist
in a town in major need of therapy. So not my kind of flick, but it had
some funny moments, and it ended on a good note. By then I was tired
and kind of icky feeling. So I took off. Was glad to hang out with
Also heard from my globe trotting musketeers. It seems Logan International
is of the suck, and people in Boston are weird. They’re on their way to
Iceland for another stop, then off to Scotland, Mild envy. But honestly,
if I was with them I’d probably be driven to jump ship and hightail it to
the British Museum for a week. And I’d miss all the other fun.
Drove home, put in one of my new purchases…and found out I’d already
seen it (and wasn’t terribly impressed by it). Giving it another try, since
I did spend money on it. Also ripping the other purchases for my future
watching. Probably going to stay up late tonight, I’m kind of jittery.
I’ve also decided to give myself a mulligan on tomorrow. I need to make
a store run for missing things, and return the Redbox I got yesterday (and
forgot to return today). Besides that, it could be books, it could be
movies, I may even go out to the movies or out to somewhere nice for dinner.
I don’t know, I’m just going to take it as it comes.
So that’s about it for Sunday’s braindump. Going to make a snack, and
keep on keeping on. Take care.
It’s the weekend again, yay! It’s a three day weekend, double yay!
Friday night was taking the Musketeers out to dinner before they leave town
for a long European vacation. *envy* Oh well, one of these lifetimes
I’ll make it over the Pond. Woke up this morning, ran some errands,
came home. Got my new multi-region Blu Ray player, set it up, and am
now watching the new bluray edition of ‘The Lurking Fear’. Besides
movies, I’m doing my usual geekery. The plan is to basically relax til
sundown, then do the laundry. Mostly though, just want to take it easy
Was a good week, pshrink visit on Wednesday to adjust my meds again. I was
doing better, but I thought there was still room for improvement. Work
is decent, home life is quiet. Really no big change other than the pshrink
Tomorrow I’ll be hanging out with some friends, possibly with a visit to the
big Half Price Books in Dallas. Monday I’m going to hermit here at
Château Innsmouth and dive into my pile of books to read. Good way to
celebrate independence i think. Then it’s back to work, with some after
hours time to make up for the day off.
So that’s this week in fox land. The next few weeks will be a little
tricky, as the above mentioned best friends will be out of town. Luckily
I have a good support network, stuff to keep me busy. I’ll be ok.
I’m tough that way. *wink* Ok, that’s enough rambling. I’ll write more