Still not feeling good, last night was broken sleep, finally gave up on
the whole trying to sleep thing about 5am. I'm icky feeling, coughing
and generally off. Luckily I had no hard plans for today. So I queued
up 'Mr Robot'. Clinical depressive security admin with issues and a mild
case of the Innsmouth look, definitely interesting show. Needs more geek,
less drama. But well, drama sells TV. And it's not bad.
Otherwise I've tinkered with a few things, got my external backup drives
all together, so if something horrible happens, I can still walk out with
all my data. Things geeks worry about. Fixed a few glitches I've been
meaning to poke at. Nice when I can make stuff work.
Rest of the week? We'll see how I feel tomorrow. Oh that reminds me
*throws more stuff at the resume buzzword pile* Nothing else really to
say. Catch you all later, have a good day.
And it's Tuesday. Had another rough night, didn't feel good before bed,
had crazy dreams all night. One dream that involved me triggering
explosives before other people could be hurt, that was odd. Got up on
time, took a little bit to get moving, but I was out the door to go
walking at 11. Did around 4k steps, but I was dragging by the end and
not feeling good. I think I got a snoot full of dust moving stuff yesterday,
and my allergies are in overdrive.
I need to go to the store later, once I'm feeling human. I'm also throwing
buzzwords into a txt file, skills I have. I'm going to dig into other
job postings that I don't necessarily want to apply for, but to see how they
word skill requests. Though I'm seriously wondering about 'Ninja like
skills' in requests. Does this mean I have to show up to the interview
in full black, climb in though the ventilation ducts and kill other
applicants with shuriken to the temple ? We'll see.
Not much else to say about today. I'll get the shopping done, I'll write
up more of my skill set. Hopefully I feel better soon, and things
swing back up. Catch you all later.
Well it's Monday. Had a rough night's sleep, got up and was lacking in
tentacles. Bummed around the house, did the usual chores. Met up
with Amythest around 4ish to move stuff in her storage unit, wasn't
a lot of stuff, but neither of us were feeling terribly spry. Got done
after about an hour, and I headed for home. Did manage to get goal for
steps, with all the stuff I moved around. My back is killing me though.
Really have to stop helping people move, I'm getting too old for this
Tonight I'm just going to take it easy, hopefully get to bed and actually
sleep at a decent hour tonight. Definitely not feeling my best right now.
Oh well, I will survive. *waves tentacles* Catch you all tomorrow.
So as I said in last post, this next week starts the transition to job
hunting mode. Note the words 'start' and 'transition'. I'm still
in the moderately freaked out mode about job hunting. So instead of
my original plan to basically flip a switch tomorrow, I'm going to
ease into it. Start with getting back in the habit of waking up (and
going to bed) at the same time every day. Start writing the resume,
go shopping for interview clothes, etc. I also need to call my 401k
company and get that moved. Also keep to my walking routine, and the
daily chores, and more reading on my down time, and more water drinking than
anything else. Sticking to the Plan 2.0, post staycation stuff.
So, I'll work on resume, and on ironing out what my actual skillset is.
I've looked at random postings that are vaguely in my field, and I'm
reminded of crazy things I've worked on in the past. (I've also noted
that if I already had Secret level security clearance, well there's a
lot of network jobs out there that require preexisting clearance. Odd.)
I also need to continue on my experiments, especially Puppet. I also
think there will be a crash course in Python or Ruby in my future, given
how many times those have popped up. But getting the resume together
is the big thing. Then getting it 'peer reviewed', then handing it off
to my geek friends (In DFW only though, I'm not wanting to migrate).
Then start stalking the job postings out there...
Which, as I said, will take some time. And I'm not going from 0 to 60,
I don't think my anxiety is up for that. On the other tentacle, I
don't want to stall too long either. I have the finances for an extended
leave, but I don't want to be an idiot about it, as I have done in the
past. So we'll see how I do. One day at a time, one tentacle in front
of another. *sigh* I can do this. Ok, that's enough rambling for today.
Catch you all later.
Besides Cthulhu eating the Moon, it's been a mostly ok Sunday. Had odd
dreams of friends driving by in sportscars, and trying to set up a colony
on another world, which is probably due to watching 'Pandorum' last night.
Got up, got moving, headed down to Amythest's. Started laundry, and
then I worked with Amythest on giving the ferret cage a major cleaning.
We decided that ferret poop makes a fair substitute for cement. Then
we ran some errands, Walmart run and then...the petstore.
Amythest's ferret Apollo has been down in the dumps since Shadow passed,
he's always had his big brother there. So the idea was she was going to
bring home another feezle. Simple plan. So of course, there's two adorable
tiny kits at the petstore. One white/butterscotch, and the other the
darkest sable either of us had ever seen. And they were adorable, and
sweet, and bitey (Kit ferrets tend to bite pretty hard on humans, they haven't
learned that humans are sensitive. But we're both used to it.) So she ended
up coming home with two ferrets. Color me shocked. They were named
before we got out of the store, Frik and Frak. (after the Swiss skaters,
not any relation to Battlestar Galactica slang) Frik is the white guy,
and Frak is the sable. Got them home, introduced them to Apollo, who
proceeded to follow them around sniffing them constantly. No fighting,
though Frik seems to be easily startled and vocal about it. So yay for
social weaselness. No pictures, sorry...but ferrets are hard to photograph
at the best of times, and kits are double trouble. I'll try next visit though.
Then I finished up laundry, and we watched a few episodes of NCIS to try to
catch up. Came home, been poking my head out every little while to look
at the Moon. It's at about middle eclipse right now, and it's a weird
pale red color, nifty. A good ending to a mostly snazzy Sunday, minus
some emotional foo (miss my ferret gang) and some anxiety early today.
Tomorrow starts the transition to job hunting mode. Which will probably
be another post in fairly short order. Hope everyone had a good day, and
I'll babble more later.
Yay for Saturday. Slept better, weird dreams but nothing bad. Got
up and got moving. Decided today needed a movie theme, so it's movies
set on Mars, hence the post subject. Call it a warm up for the 'The
Martian' being released next week. So I'm starting with 'Total Recall',
the Arnold original. Beyond the movies, I have a couple of chores to do,
but mostly today I'm aiming for downtime and vegging.
Not a lot else, I'm kind of tired, and a little low. Not very, just a
tad. Hoping today will be a restful recovery day. Maybe with a nap.
I dunno. Not much else to say, catch you all later.
Went to Amythest's school this afternoon, the kids had a half day, but
she was still working on her classroom and needed some company. So I
got her to laugh, helped her rearrange some stuff and we were going to meet
up with Nymaz to move school stuff in storage to a smaller storage unit.
That didn't work out, seems the smaller unit won't be available til Monday.
But I'm available for labor on Monday after school hours, so it wasn't a
crisis of any kind. So the three of us went to dinner, some bbq place that
happened to also serve burgers (I'm that rare person who doesn't like the
stuff). We talked, and made silly comments and generally improved all
our moods. We're good that way.
We parted ways, they were off to see some silly movie, and I was down to
my last social tentacle. So I came home, and I'm probably not leaving
Château Innsmouth in the next 30 hours or so. I was tempted to go to a
local scifi con tomorrow, visit some friends I rarely see, but I don't think
I'm up for crowds and socializing. So I think I'll just stay home,
putter around the house and do calming stuff.
Mood is better than earlier, still not great though. Going to treat tonight
like a usual Friday night, stay up late, watch cheesy movies, update
virtual machines, etc. Hopefully I can reset the down fleeing of the
last few days. I've also decided that while I'm going to work on job
hunting next week, I'm also giving myself more down time, get back into
things slower than originally planned. I kind of have to, otherwise there
will be a panic-fest in short order. We'll see how things go. For now
though, I'm only planning tonight and tomorrow. For now though, I'll
catch you all later. *waves a quiet tentacle*
Amythest's ferret Shadow passed away yesterday. It wasn't expected, we
went to let the feezles play, and he was gone. Poor little guy. And poor
us. He may not have been 'my' ferret, but I loved him just the same.
Her other ferret, Apollo is fine. Rest in peace dear Shadow, you will
Not much else to say. I came home last night and pretty much went
directly to book. Sleep was broken, got up a little while ago. Going to
be helping Amythest with moving stuff later today. Not exactly what I
wanted to do today, but need to help the friends.
So yeah, not in a good mental place today. Not making plans for the weekend
since all I really want to do is hide out right now. We'll see what happens.
For now, I'll just hide out at home til it's time to labor. Catch you all
Well, it's been a quiet afternoon. Went and got my meds and a couple of
things from the store...and ran into an ex-coworker. Seems they hired
someone to replace me, they were interviewing before I left. No one has
been touching the abuse queue, but otherwise it's been ok. I'll freely
admit I was hoping for a 'Oh gods, the walls are falling down!!!'. My ego
could have used that, but the universe doesn't revolve around me.
I've been kind of off since then. Not badly so, but a bit. I'm also starting
to get more anxious about the idea of job hunting. It is probably my
least favorite activity. I hate the idea of being judged, and possibly
being found wanting. (self esteem issues, I can have them) Oh well,
hopefully it won't be as horrible as I worry about. And yes, I know I'm
supposed to be on vacation, I still worry. Not sure what will stop the
worries, well besides finding a job that doesn't set off anxiety triggers.
Or learning to cope with a job that does. I don't know.
So yeah, I'm not in the great headspace I was in last week. I've been
reading a lot, and watching a lot of movies. Don't really feel like
dealing with website foo, but I'm doing at least the basic stuff to
start. Probably going to run the trash out and check the mail, see if I
can make 10k steps today. Then I'll work on the website foo and probably
make it an early book night. Nothing like escaping into a nice collection
of Mythos tales, or some nice calming history.
So yeah, not doing as spiffy as last week. I'll be ok, like I said I have
books to read, and books make things better. Catch you all tomorrow,
when hopefully I've got more perky stuff to say.