Putting the meat suit in its place

Stuff is going on. Had my pshrink visit this week. Trying a new med, and possibly a new kind of treatment plan. I'm not going into details yet, mostly because I'm still turning things over in my brain and doing research. As usual, I'm hopeful and scared to hope at the same time. But that's depression in a nutshell.

Work is well, work. Patchfest round one is finished for the quarter. Round two will be part this week, and part the week after. It's going be crazy, but I shall survive. It's one of those specialty things. Make all the servers bend to my will, and evolve. Plus I'll have a number of other tasks starting next week, but I can get it all done.

Today I went to see some friends. Stupid allergies and nasal drip is driving me crazy. I need to get the referral to an allergist this next week, so maybe I can get this under control too. I can dream at least. But it was good to see people. Social anxiety sucks on top of everything else I've got going on this year. But, I'm in charge of this damn meat suit, and it will start to fucking listen to me.

Well, that got a little intense. But it's true. So wish me luck on getting things back the way I want them. *crosses tentacles*

Quick post

I keep meaning to blog, but it turns into a complaint fest that I save, and never get back to. I'm still not feeling good, physically or mentally. I've had stressful work days (still like the job, I work with good people), computer issues at home, and a whole mess of miscommunications. If I could pull a mega-hermit and never leave Ch√Ęteau Innsmouth, I would be seriously tempted. But, I can't, so I won't. Plus, I do miss my friends, so no haunted mansions outside of town for me. Glad it's Friday either way. Tonight is bad movies and early to bed. Hopefully this weekend will be a change of mood, and next week will be better. I can dream at least.

Green Vulpine needs Hope, badly.

Well it's another week, and I'm not doing so hot. Had a relapse after last weekend, doctor called in new antibiotics which have helped. But I still feel pretty lousy. My lungs are really tight, I've been using the inhaler a bunch. It helps, but I have a feeling I need to find a respiratory specialist and get my lungs really checked out. Along with an allergist, and possibly a full body transplant specialist. So if anyone is experimenting with building cyborgs, I may be your guinea pig.

I worked from home Mon-Wed. I was told rather firmly to go home since I sounded like a TB ward. I got stuff done, but I still feel like a slacker. *sigh* Oh, I haven't mentioned it, but I have a new boss. Nothing bad, just some reshuffling above my level. Going to actually meet the guy (he works out of Atlanta, soon to be Tennessee) next week. I do kind of like having remote managers, less of the insanity of a former employer. Plus, me and my team mates just work well together, no real need for a day to day watch over us kind of guy.

Due to the relapse, I've mentally canceled most of my weekend plans. Not sure I want to leave the house, not sure I'll be able to do all the chores that are backed up either though. I really don't know. I'm going to try to get at least the minimum I need for survival, if I can do more, I will, and if I can't...well *throws tentacles in the air*

Mental health is...poor. Mom's anniversary of her passing is next weekend, and I've had lots of reminders of things in the last couple of weeks. The pneumonia is definitely NOT helping. (Her death, for those who don't know, was due to a bout of pneumonia). Add to that the world news lately, and personal issues I don't want to go into on here, I'm really not a happy fox. Seriously, I think the only reason I haven't had a full on meltdown is I'm going numb before it happens. Hiding in books, in movies. I have a pshrink visit in a few weeks, and I sense we'll be changing things.

In regards to the new news on Livejournal, I'm honestly not sure I give a darn. Not that I particularly trust the Russian Federation, but there really isn't anything on there I'm concerned about. On the other tentacle, they're no longer using SSL. That's bad, m'kay. I even tried to force it, nope redirect to port 80. Not sure how much I want to go to DW. I already have a blog, and I have a sort of copy of all my posts on LJ. But since I don't really have the tentacles to cope with a decision, I'm not going to make one just yet.

So what am I going to do this weekend? Besides at least the bare minimum of chores, I'm watching movies. Specifically right now 'The Void', which I've been waiting for with major anticipation. I also picked up both 'Alien vs Predator' movies on bluray to complete my current collection. So maybe Aliens marathon tomorrow, or something else. Or I may just read all the books. I really am just going to try to relax, hopefully my lungs will feel better, and I'll be in a better place come Monday. I can dream at least.

Vulpine Goes to the Movies: Ghost in the Shell & Life

Well yesterday I went on a Sci-Fi fest with Amythest and Nymaz. Went to see 'Ghost in the Shell' and 'Life'. So I thought I'd throw together some reviews.

I'm not going to comment on the various controversies about 'Ghost in the Shell'. Just going to describe what I saw. It's a very stylistic, cyber punky movie. Shiny and grimy at the same time. Scarlett Johansson looks really good as the Major, but her acting was very cyborgish. The various anime versions of the Major shows her with snark and emotions. The plot is a mix of the original GitS and Stand Alone Complex, with some added backstory that really wasn't necessary. On the plus side, the effects are good, and the action scenes are dynamic. And since I have a major crush on ms Scarlett, even if her acting was kind of wooden, it was enjoyable to watch. Glad I saw it on the big screen, and I'll probably pick it up on dvd/bluray, but if I'm wanting a cyberpunk fix, I'll probably turn to 'Stand Alone Complex' or the original movie (which I'm watching now). 3 out of 5 ghosts in the machine.

Then we went to see 'Life'. Now this was a fun movie. Alien life form examined on the ISS. Alien life form runs amok, fun is had. Unlike 'Prometheus' the scientists don't make completely stupid decisions. They make mistakes, but they're understandable ones. None of the characters are 'mad scientists', and are all pretty likable. The monster is shoggoth-y and the CGI was very well done. There's even a Lovecraft shout out in the beginning, which made me a very happy cultist. Lots of 'Alien' themes, and some 'The Thing' flavors, but with it's own way of doing things. It's also pretty bleak, as most good SciFi/Horror is, keep in mind. Will definitely watch repeatedly once I have it in my hot little pseudopods. I think it gets 5 out of 5 flailing pseudopods.

So that's Vulpine at the movies. Had a good time, even if I wasn't feeling too good. Hopefully next weekend I'll get to see another Lovecraftian flick, 'The Void'. If not, it will be on DVD soon. Ok, catch you all later.

Can someone help me find my lung?

It's April Fool's Day. Been caught at least twice, possibly I should just avoid the internets today. Oh well.

Was kind of a rough week, still feeling puny, work has ramped up my meeting queue, and I've been kind of flailing around trying to get stuff done. Glad it's the weekend though. Today is movie theater day, going to see 'Ghost in the Shell' then 'Life' this evening to celebrate Nymaz spawning day (early, since the poor viking is stuck on call on his actually spawning weekend). There will also be general hangout time, and dinner at a diner we all like by the movie theater. Omelet for days, and maybe even pie.

Still coughing up shoggoths, still feeling less than good. I'm hoping it's just my lungs clearing with a side of allergies redux. But there may be yet another doctor visit coming up, as this is utterly miserable.

Otherwise, things are ok. Double-checked vacation approval with my boss's boss. Wasn't 'worried' but I wanted to make sure it was cool up the chain. I also found a reason to adjust my pre-Providence travels. Kirk Hammett, along with being a guitarist, is a major horror collector. So a museum in Salem is doing a exhibit of some of his stuff. And since I'm flying into Boston, I may have to make a side trip up to Salem the day I fly in. (on top of visiting old Ironsides and the Boston Aquarium, maybe driving to the Atlantic shore...) Really, I need to make a separate trip to Boston in the future, lots of things I want/need to see with adult eyes. Oh well, that's what 2018 is for.

What's up in cultist ville? Books, including finishing the late John Glasby's 'Dark Armageddon' trilogy. The series is about humans trying to survive when the stars come right. It's very Brian Lumleyesque, but I've always liked Glasby's writing. He doesn't reinvent anything, or won't take home the gold in Cthulhu writing, but he does right solid, readable, enjoyable tales that scratch that tentacle itch.

Also, remember 'Winter Tide? Book freedom day is this Tuesday. It should be in your local brick+mortar stores, as well as findable at your online bookplace of choice, plus there's always I've got the Kindle edition preordered, and I'll be at the local B&N on Tuesday to get my hardback edition. April has a lot of preorders coming out, so it will be a good reading month.

Also, speaking of Lovecraft, next weekend is the release date for The Void. Lovecraftian film, that has people/shoggoths/mi-go all abuzz. (literally when you mention the later). It will be showing in DFW at one of the Alamo Drafthouses, and I'm looking to go see it on the big screen. (then of course, pick it up on bluray afterwards).

Ok, that's enough rambling for today. Wish me luck on good movie sign, and feeling better, and I'll ramble later.