The Thanks Giveth, The Thanks Taketh Away

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving here in the US. But I can't say the last week and a half has made me terribly grateful. Carcosa Corp had a reduction in force. My manager and his manager are gone, and much worse, one of my best friends (and coworker) also got cut. There's also a major reorg in the works. But not much in the way of details, other than I still have a spot on the org chart for next year. To say I'm unhappy is a major understatement. People got decent severance packages from what I heard, and I don't see any of the people I know being out of work long. But I've got a case of survivor's guilt, plus not knowing what I'll be really doing in 2 months, plus trying to keep up with everything going on, and I'm a bundle of nerves. Spent most of this week dealing with Sybase database issues that I really don't know, though I'm learning a bunch on the fly. Working on Black Friday, where I'll be doing a crash course in database migration.

On top of that, I've been feeling lousy, not so much allergies as I think my BP meds are starting to have less affect on me. I'm going to the doctor next week for a med check/blood work. So I'll ask about things. My BP cuff says I'm about the same as always, but for all I know I'm using it wrong. Pshrink visit showed my bp as higher than usual. Speaking of physical foo, I sat wrong on my chair, and it slid out from under me and I hit the floor. No damage. other than it ratcheted my anxiety up (and gave my elbow a good whack). Depression is way up there too, I really need to stop looking at the news.

So, that's all the bad...or at least all the bad I can stomach writing about right now. So what's good? Well I invested in some blurays, 2 collections of Paul Naschy flicks (king of Spanish horror films). Most of which I've never seen, so I'm currently having a binge of his flicks. Definitely better than watching Sybase databases. Also lots of good books out, including a few signed books *waves at Pete Rawlik and Sam Gafford*. My friends, as always, are awesome, and I've gotten a lot of critter time recently. And I'm at least having less anxiety dreams. Oh yeah, and in joining the 21st century, I had my first grocery delivery. Not sure if I'll do this on a regular basis, there's a lack of some of my staples. But compared to going to the store 2 days before turkey day, it was amazing.

Long weekend plans? Tomorrow is sleeping in, then afternoon meal with Amythest and clan, staying as long as my cope lasts. Friday is another day at the office, with the above mentioned database migrations. Friday night will probably be more Naschy flicks. Saturday is the annual Soup and Movie fest, also at Amythest's place. Sunday will be chores and recovery and trying to find the tentacles to deal with the upcoming work week. Since I'm working on Black Friday, I'm off work the next Friday. Probably will be mostly a down weekend, vegging and such.

So that's the state of the fox. Feeling a little better getting some stuff down on virtual paper. Going to watch some more Eurohorror then head to bed. Night everyone.

As it was written in the Scrolls of Sutekh…

Well it's the weekend again, so it means I should throw some words on virtual paper. Get the brainmeats out of the way quick, being back on seroquel means I'm sleeping more/better, but my anxiety is still way out there. (not expecting immediate fix, I know better). Depression lurks in a ninja kind of way, I see good things, I feel good things, but it leaps out every now and again in a nihilistic kind of way that reminds me that I'm still rather broken. But I've been broken before, and I've put myself together, repeatedly. I am a New Yorker after all, we're survivors.

So enough strum und drang. What is best in life Vulpine? Well, I'm not Conan, so lets start with books. Been reading a bunch of old school Mythos still. Got a pile of other stuff to read, but other than a little history it's all tentaclular horrors. Listened/ing to a few books by Charlie Stross to get in the mood for his latest Laundry File book next month. Not the whole series, just enough to get back in the series. So many books, so little time.

Went to see 'The Mummy' today. A solid bit of cheese, with a side of ham from Russell Crowe. Yes it could have been much better, but it still was fun and Sofia Boutella was a nice mix of creepy, evil, and lovely. Plus, she was literally covered in hieratic script, so a walking book. Sign me up for the cult please. *grin* Also, for any Lovecraftians who've seen it, did anyone look at the red jewel McGuffin and think 'Shining Trapezohedron' ? Or was that just me trying to make everything into a Mythos reference

What will I do tomorrow? Probably just chores and stuff. Been meaning to clean up the bedroom for months now, may just pop an audiobook or podcast in and spend a while in there trying to get things organized. This is alongside a store run, laundry and similar stuff, so I may set reasonable goals instead. Assuming I don't just hide in bed with a book, or within a movie marathon of cheese and gore. We'll see. For now though, going to call this a post before it's technically Sunday. Laters cultists.

Vulpine Goes to the Movies: Ghost in the Shell & Life

Well yesterday I went on a Sci-Fi fest with Amythest and Nymaz. Went to see 'Ghost in the Shell' and 'Life'. So I thought I'd throw together some reviews.

I'm not going to comment on the various controversies about 'Ghost in the Shell'. Just going to describe what I saw. It's a very stylistic, cyber punky movie. Shiny and grimy at the same time. Scarlett Johansson looks really good as the Major, but her acting was very cyborgish. The various anime versions of the Major shows her with snark and emotions. The plot is a mix of the original GitS and Stand Alone Complex, with some added backstory that really wasn't necessary. On the plus side, the effects are good, and the action scenes are dynamic. And since I have a major crush on ms Scarlett, even if her acting was kind of wooden, it was enjoyable to watch. Glad I saw it on the big screen, and I'll probably pick it up on dvd/bluray, but if I'm wanting a cyberpunk fix, I'll probably turn to 'Stand Alone Complex' or the original movie (which I'm watching now). 3 out of 5 ghosts in the machine.

Then we went to see 'Life'. Now this was a fun movie. Alien life form examined on the ISS. Alien life form runs amok, fun is had. Unlike 'Prometheus' the scientists don't make completely stupid decisions. They make mistakes, but they're understandable ones. None of the characters are 'mad scientists', and are all pretty likable. The monster is shoggoth-y and the CGI was very well done. There's even a Lovecraft shout out in the beginning, which made me a very happy cultist. Lots of 'Alien' themes, and some 'The Thing' flavors, but with it's own way of doing things. It's also pretty bleak, as most good SciFi/Horror is, keep in mind. Will definitely watch repeatedly once I have it in my hot little pseudopods. I think it gets 5 out of 5 flailing pseudopods.

So that's Vulpine at the movies. Had a good time, even if I wasn't feeling too good. Hopefully next weekend I'll get to see another Lovecraftian flick, 'The Void'. If not, it will be on DVD soon. Ok, catch you all later.

Horror and the literate Vulpine

Had a good Saturday. Woke up way early, not originally the plan but I had weird dreams and I just wanted to be out of that weirdness. Did the usual Saturday foo (store run, other chores). I was going to leave early to go raid a bookstore and be social with friends, but I ended up dealing with a fiddly database server, so I didn't leave til later than I planned. Not a huge deal, just felt a tad off. Finally did leave, and headed up to the flagship Half Price Books in Dallas. Sold a few DVDs back, as much to clear up space as anything else, besides a few bucks I got a 10% off coupon for my purchases. Useful that. I only picked up 3 books, a bibliography of Lovecraft (it's the older edition, so it's out of date on stuff but still useful), a book called 'The Magick Bookshop', stories about an occult bookshop, and 'Secret Agent 666: Aleister Crowley, British Intelligence and the Occult', which I've had on my esoterica wishlist for years. Should make for some interesting reading. Well, not the bibliography, that's going to be more for digging into randomly.

After the book raid, I went to visit some friends and watch movies. We ended up shockingly watching horror flicks, well 2 of us did, while a certain raptor played Minecraft. Worked out well, got some puppy time, got to talk geek, was good. Had an amusing conversation with J about horror around the world, and we came to the realization that I've seen a LOT of horror movies from all over. I could rattle off theme differences between Spanish, Italian and French horror, or how Korean horror is what happens when you take Japanese and Hong Kong horror movies, and turn it up to 11. But I couldn't tell you about Vietnamese horror cinema at all, or names for Indian horror flicks (though I'm pretty sure Bollywood has some, and they have musical numbers). We also agreed that the world needs more Middle Eastern horror, and there's probably a ton of African movie makers who will scare the pants off people. (Not just South Africa, but Nigeria and others). So much horror, so little time.

Came home a while ago, watching more horror (Hammer Films). Book time in a while, then hopefully getting to sleep in. A fox can dream at least.

Greek food and crazy movies

Had a good night's sleep, full of strange dreams about a city that I dream about on a regular basis. Not sure what it's based on, but it seems the same every time it shows up. This time I was able to cut through traffic and get back to DFW because I was able to slip through spacetime. (I blame that bit on reading the tech details about Alastair Reynolds' 'Revelation Space' novels). Woke up, and sadly the cool dream didn't carry over. Had a major league anxiety attack. Took my happy meds, watched a movie, and generally bumped all plans back.

By the time I was up for going to the movies, I was pretty decent. Met up with my friends, watched the third 'The Purge' movie. Given the foo going on lately, I had a feeling this movie wouldn't be much fun. But it had some good bits, besides the political foo. Lots of violence, lots of one liners from a few characters that were hysterical, and it ended on a vague high note. If you liked the first 2, you'd probably like this one.

Headed home, picked up packages, (Yay finally got my copy of 'Swords v Cthulhu'). Headed back out a little later to have dinner with some other friends, celebrating a spawning day. Went to a Greek/Mediterranean place, very tasty. We ate foods, chitchatted, caught up. Definitely will go back there. Took care of some other stuff, and came home. Fired up 'Prometheus' because I needed some fluff. Scientists making horrible decisions always makes me feel better.

So yeah, in a better place than 24 hours ago. Plan for tonight is probably to watch movies and veg. Later I'll dig into my new, shiny book. Tomorrow I have more errands to run, laundry to do, and will probably just be chill. Then another week of work, with a series of things I need to focus on. Nothing bad, just adjusting priorities. No real plans for the week besides work. So for that, I'm going to call this a post.

Sunday sans title

Well Sunday was pretty decent. I got up around the usual time, bummed around Château Innsmouth for a while. Headed out to hang out with friends, with a side trip to the flagship Half Price Books in Dallas. Oh lord, I went nuts, a ton of DVDs and blurays, and a number of books for the Mythos collection. I really need to get a couple of new bookcases. before my collection explodes. My credit card may be crying.

Went up to hang out with P and J Watched the 2nd and 3rd Poltergeist flicks, which I haven't seen since I was a kid. Not great, but not bad. I remember them being much worse. Then, because we've inflicted a ton of bad movies on the P he picked 'Mumford' which was a very odd and quirky flick about a therapist in a town in major need of therapy. So not my kind of flick, but it had some funny moments, and it ended on a good note. By then I was tired and kind of icky feeling. So I took off. Was glad to hang out with my pals.

Also heard from my globe trotting musketeers. It seems Logan International is of the suck, and people in Boston are weird. They're on their way to Iceland for another stop, then off to Scotland, Mild envy. But honestly, if I was with them I'd probably be driven to jump ship and hightail it to the British Museum for a week. And I'd miss all the other fun.

Drove home, put in one of my new purchases...and found out I'd already seen it (and wasn't terribly impressed by it). Giving it another try, since I did spend money on it. Also ripping the other purchases for my future watching. Probably going to stay up late tonight, I'm kind of jittery. I've also decided to give myself a mulligan on tomorrow. I need to make a store run for missing things, and return the Redbox I got yesterday (and forgot to return today). Besides that, it could be books, it could be movies, I may even go out to the movies or out to somewhere nice for dinner. I don't know, I'm just going to take it as it comes.

So that's about it for Sunday's braindump. Going to make a snack, and keep on keeping on. Take care.

Anxiety, aliens, sharks and sushi

Weekend report. Saturday was some chores, and then hanging out with Amythest and Nymaz. Took one of Amythest's kitties to the vet, she's going fine. Dropped her back off at home, and we went to the movies. Saw the new 'Independence Day' flick, which was fun, but not as good as the original. The magic of the original would have been hard to recreate. The effects were good, and the background of the movie was actually pretty positive. Plus aliens with tentacles are always good to me.

Post the movie, we went to a local sushi buffet. Nothing out of this world, but it was pretty tasty. We then ran a couple of errands to kill time before the second movie...'The Shallows'.

'The Shallows' was your basic woman vs nature, done rather well. The shark, while it was acting kind of outside the norm for Great Whites, wasn't completely off the wall like most shark movies. The actress, Blake Lively, was good. The shark effects were really good. It was a really good flick, and nice to show sharks as not utter demons, while still showing them as a creature you should be afraid of. 8 or 9 fins in the water.

Came home after the movie, took forever due to construction on the highway I didn't notice til it was way too late. Oh well, I had Lovecraftian podcasts to listen to so I just made the best of it. Got home, went to bed with a book. One of the 'Aliens' novels that originally came out in the 90's. Nice bit of xenomorph fluff. Went to bed, slept, dreamed some weird dreams, and woke up full on anxious. Tried to stay in bed, fail. Took my meds, and I'm camping out at the Desk of Doom (tm) til things settle down, then I'll go down and do laundry and stuff at Amythest's as usual.

So yeah, that's my weekend. The anxiety is starting to fade a little, that's good. Hope it decided to bugger off for a while. I can dream at least. At least next weekend is a 3 day weekend. Ok, enough rambling. Catch you all later.

Saturday Supernatural

Well Saturday has been alright. Woke up after a weird dream about buying and running a school. Futzed around the Château Innsmouth, maintenance never showed. *sigh* Watched 1.5 Amityville Horror flicks, then headed up to visit some friends. Who's AC was out, ick. Got to finally watch 'The Witch' with subtitles, which cleared up some dialog bits, but it seems I grokked the general Puritan theology and 17th century English. Also watched the original 'Poltergeist', always a fun flick. But after that flick I was pretty much a puddle, so I headed home with the AC on high.

Got Taco Bell for dinner, finished watching the .5 of the 2nd Amityville movie. Got mail after the sun went down, which including my replacement NecronomiPod. It's currently running through all the updates. And boy is there a lot of them. Also watching 'Amityville 3D' which is one of my guilty pleasures.

Probably going to make it a fairly early night of bed and book, getting overheated will do that to a fox. Plus I have a ton of Mythos and Ancient History to read. Tomorrow is keeping up the ghostness, the plan is to go see 'The Conjuring 2' with Amythest. It's been a ghostly weekend I guess. Catch you all later, unless the spooks catch me first.

The Devil Made Me Film It

Well, after a crazy week of working at Carcosa, I've gladly lazed most of last night and today. The Thursday night maintenance went much better than Tuesday. Less servers, more help, more planning. Still didn't get enough sleep, so come Friday night after work I pretty much ate dinner, and went to bed with a book. Was asleep before 10am, and I pretty much slept til 10am. Had some unpleasant dreams about a former friend, and some weird ones about blood relatives and submarine bases (reading wiki articles on subs probably contributed to the later. Also, somewhere there was sabre fencing. *shakes head* My subconsciousness needs a deep cleaning.

Got up today, got moving. Cleaned out the car finally, went and did critter care, got meds, got packages, and ended up coming home due to a lack of tentacles. Been watching a collection of 'Devil Worship Horror Movies' mostly from the 70's. Epicly cheesy and fun, definitely got my money's worth. Done some chores, done some VM updates, mostly just have been vegging.

My Nexus 5 decided to flake out, so I migrated back to my old 4, and put in a RMA request from the company I bought the 5 from. Very annoying. Glad I hung on the 4 for experimental purposes. Did manage to pull a backup, and reset it to factory default before sending it off. Still a pain in the tentacle.

Ok, going to call this a post, and keep on watching the wild fun of bad movies. Catch you all later.

Apocalypse fun and games

So today was meeting up with the Musketeers and going to see XMen: Apocalypse. But first, as is traditional for Memorial Day Weekend, I raided a couple of Half Price Books for 20% off savings. Got a couple of 'loaner' copy books to hook friends on favorite authors, a horror collection of randomness (with a T.E.D. Klein story I've never read), another book on HPL I didn't have, and a DVD copy of 'Ravenous'. Yay for snazzy and cheap stuff.

Went to see XMen. It's pretty good, though kind of over long and slow in spots. My favorite XMan is there, Nightcrawler. They need to give him a saber and some swashes to buckle though. Psylocke was epicly yummy, and the big battles were fun to watch. Not the best Marvel flick ever, but worth watching on the big screen.

Ran some errands after the movie, hung out for a bit and was amused at cats stalking the wild ice cream back at Chez Amythest's. Came home, cranked up the AC, and started watching Deadpool, because who doesn't like Deadpool ? Going to stay up for a while, probably watch some more superhero flicks. They are one of my favorite non-horror genres. Tomorrow is knocking my TODO list down to size. So much laundry... But hermit time will be good. Still trying to think of a good marathon of movies to watch while doing chores. We'll see. Catch you all later.