Naval gazing, and the naval gazes back

Well, it's been a quiet afternoon. Went and got my meds and a couple of things from the store...and ran into an ex-coworker. Seems they hired someone to replace me, they were interviewing before I left. No one has been touching the abuse queue, but otherwise it's been ok. I'll freely admit I was hoping for a 'Oh gods, the walls are falling down!!!'. My ego could have used that, but the universe doesn't revolve around me.

I've been kind of off since then. Not badly so, but a bit. I'm also starting to get more anxious about the idea of job hunting. It is probably my least favorite activity. I hate the idea of being judged, and possibly being found wanting. (self esteem issues, I can have them) Oh well, hopefully it won't be as horrible as I worry about. And yes, I know I'm supposed to be on vacation, I still worry. Not sure what will stop the worries, well besides finding a job that doesn't set off anxiety triggers. Or learning to cope with a job that does. I don't know.

So yeah, I'm not in the great headspace I was in last week. I've been reading a lot, and watching a lot of movies. Don't really feel like dealing with website foo, but I'm doing at least the basic stuff to start. Probably going to run the trash out and check the mail, see if I can make 10k steps today. Then I'll work on the website foo and probably make it an early book night. Nothing like escaping into a nice collection of Mythos tales, or some nice calming history.

So yeah, not doing as spiffy as last week. I'll be ok, like I said I have books to read, and books make things better. Catch you all tomorrow, when hopefully I've got more perky stuff to say.

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