October hasn't been what I'd call a great month. Work is lots of stress, lots of change and not a lot of concrete stuff. I'm officially a Subject Matter Expert for something I really do not to be involved in, but I am the guy with the most knowledge ATM. At least the project is a complete new build out, so hopefully I can do it right from the start.
I turned 46. I still don't feel 46. What the hell happened? I'll buy
my 30's, since I can at least keep my checkbook balanced. Oh well. On my
spawning day I went and saw a screening of 'Prince of Darkness' at the
Alamo Drafthouse. Good way to spend the end of my spawning day.
Last night I went to the wake of a friend of mine from college. Saw a lot
of people I haven't seen in too many years. Lots of stories, laughs, tears.
I have a lot of stuff in my head that I have to process. Don't worry,
nothing bad, just stuff in my life and how I view my life I think I need to
change. I'm also sorry it took a friend dying for me to reach out and see
those friends from my past. *sad*
Health wise, things are mixed. When I'm mindful of my eating, and my
stress isn't super high, my bloodsugars are hovering a smidge above normal.
When the stress kicks in, or I do something stupid like eat too much pizza
(aka today), they're all over the place. My dealings with CareNow have
sunk to a new low, I need to find a GP so I don't have to deal with
unprofessional medical staff. I have a couple of leads from people I trust,
so that's good. Depression/anxiety and stress is making the brainmeats
tricky to manage, along with constant focusing on my blood sugar and how
my eyes are acting. *yawn* I also am having issues sleeping solid, stress
is for the feckin birds.
So what's coming up ? A follow up eye-doctor visit on Wednesday, then
after that I hope to have stable enough vision to get my normal bifocal
glasses. Various work projects, next weekend is more social time, and
going to see some classic horror flicks next Sunday. Mostly though, I'm
just going to be trying to keep the anxiety/stress levels from hitting
peak levels again. *crosses tentacles*