Well, I finally finished my epic series about my trip to Innsmouth. Well, such that can be spoken without violating my oaths to Dagon *wink* Outside of my trip, there hasn't been a lot of news worthy stuff going on. My emotional foo is as it usually is, variable. I've visited the pshrink recently, and nothing much has changed from last visit. I know things aren't perfect in my brain, but I'm able to function, hold down a job, and most all the other 'normal' activities.
Work is kind of stressful. There is debate on what my role is,
between local and corporate. And I'm stuck in the middle, not really
knowing where I fit. Uncertainty is not my friend. It could be worse,
I'm 98% sure I'll have a job either way. I just wish I knew what I'd be
doing by the end of the year.
That stress, plus the way reality seems to be going, has been making my
brainmeats wig out. I'm anxious, a lot. My depression is more or less
the same, a little higher. I spend a lot of time at night trying to
run imaginary scenarios to relax. Focus is spotty at best, even with
books. I was able to focus some on playing chess, but my game has dropped
rather. Luckily I can go from computer: beginner to computer: clueless,
so I don't have to feel bad about being owned by a computer as much. So
what am I going to do ? Well I took today off as a mental health day,
got a bunch of chores done first thing this morning, and I've been watching
horror flicks. Tomorrow is much the same, with an eye doctor visit in
the afternoon. And Sunday is also kind of the same idea, with a viewing
of 'Equalizer 2'. I'm also going to work on VM updates, low level geek
stuff, remind myself that computers can be fun. Then hopefully on Monday
I'm somewhere back to 'normal'.
Otherwise, life is mostly trying to survive the summer. We're in a crazy
heatwave (even for Texas in July). 110 temps until next Tuesday, when
it drops to a more normal 100. *eyeroll* I really wish I didn't live
in crazy heat land. Though it seems that most of the US is also in
crazy hot weather. I'm wondering if I could get a good internet connection
So that's about all I have right now. I wanted to write less brainmeats
and more geek stuff, but that's what came out. I am going to try to
write more often, I've even rearranged my desktop layout and vim settings
to make it easier. We'll see. Via con Cthulhu everyone.