State of the fox

Quick state of the fox post. I was kind of feeling overly anxious Monday, having a ton of stuff to do at work, and not a lot of motivation. Today I managed to flip the switch. Got to work, dug out all my security audit notes and converted them into one file with details and notes and my ideas for correcting them. My two meetings went pretty smooth. I also got stuff done for Operation: Survive Mother's Day, aka getting a bunch of funny cards and sending them out to people. This year I sent out 8, I'm already pondering next year and ramping it up. I think Mom would appreciate it, and it turned a possible landmine day into something to be positive about.

Besides work and mail, I had a good weekend with the HPL Film Festival (livestreamed for those of us who couldn't make it). Mood has been pretty good. Looking forward to Saturday, and 'Black Widow: Civil War' (lets be honest, I'm Team Natasha). Lots of books to read and movies to watch. Life is feeling pretty ok right now. Hope it stays that way.

Going to try to post more often, don't want to let my blogging skills get rusty. Catch you all later. *Waves a tentacle*

A Very Good Day

Well, this Friday was a good day. Work was pretty good, even with a very long conf call. My mad skills at system monitoring came in handy, as I figured out a quick organization fix for Cacti, and came up with a 'in theory' way under Nagios to alert for processes that A. use 95% of the CPU, and B. last more than 30 min. And I could do it with the built in plugins. I've never DIY'd my own Nagios scripts before, but between my brainmeats and Nagios having good documentation it was a 5 min to have a plan. And since I'm working on a Nagios setup here at Château Innsmouth, I'll test it over the weekend before testing it more on the devel and stage networks at work.

I also volunteered to help a fellow Lovecraftian in Hungary with a thesis he's doing on HP Lovecraft. He had a ebook copy of Joshi's epic 'I Am Providence', and had about a dozen citations, but he was worried his committee would argue that the citations didn't match the physical page numbers (which I've heard of before). So, I have the 1st edition hardbacks, so he sent me a list of quotations and their chapters and general location, and I verified the page numbers (which were way different than the ebook). Didn't take long, maybe 30 min. Felt good to help another adept of Grandpa Theobald. *gains 2d6% in Library Research*

I've also watched some really bad horror movies. I'll post one of the reviews later (I did some of my best writing on Facebook ranting about this flick). I've moved on to 'The Descent', one of my favorites. Ubuntu released 16.04 yesterday, so I'm updating my test VMs. Tomorrow is hermit day, with a side of organizing, and possibly a marathon of the 'Hellraiser' flicks (random idea I had). I've got to move Dagon and Shoggoth onto the UPSes, as the last power blip showed me I oopsed there. There will probably also be a labeling fest, along with more VM updating and the aforementioned Nagios experimenting. Probably will be other experimenting, I have a list. Sunday is back to normal, laundry and TV and Amythest time. Then back to work. I have a meeting/lunch with my recruiter on...Wednesday? I definitely have to give my recruiter company this, they keep up with their placed minions. I also have a bunch of work to do, still playing catch up from being sick, and I keep coming up with ideas on how to do things, that lead to me getting assigned the deployment of said ideas. But, instead of freaking out (well for long) I take it as the challenge it's intended as and go with it. So I expect the next 3 months to be interesting, and not in the Chinese curse sense of the word.

So that's the most of the state of the fox. I'm still feeling fairly meh physically. Worst allergies ever. Mood is better, then again given how low I swung for a while, I kind of have to be better. Looking forward to a number of book pre-orders and future geeking and well, stuff. Catch you all later. *waves a tentacle*

State of the fox

Well, I had a rough night last night. Talked to Amythest and got a shower and went to bed with a book as normal. All as normal. Turned out the lights, curled up in bed...and my brain slammed into overdrive thinking all kinds of negative thoughts. Trapsing through my past and all kind of mistakes I've made, people I've hurt, decisions I've regretted. And nothing seemed to snap me out of it. Nothing I was looking forward to, nothing happy. Ugg, I hate my brain. Finally I got up, made myself go take a xanax to slow my spinny brain, and I ate some chips and read some more til things got fuzzier. Got to sleep, and I slept okish. Had better dreams, weird ones, like I was trying to wake Cthulhu via a Rube Goldbergian device involving blankets and a hand grenade. No, I don't know what that means, other than I'd like Cthulhu up and moving around.

Got up, took a while to get moving. Got to work late, but I got breakfast as well, hashbrowns fix things. Work was...challenging. Mostly not directly involving me, but frustrating. Not going into it. On the plus side, 3 month anniversary (or half way done with the contract). Went to Walmart at lunch, because I knew I'd be lacking in energy by going home time, and I needed to get away a bit. Weird Wally World, my large amount of eggs started the cashier on a conversation about flatulence... why me ? Came back to work, ended up cutting up one of the packs of eggs for lunch using my multitool. That's probably a sign it's a challenging day. Finally left late (making up for longer lunch than usual, and being late), came home to find that half the parking lot is blocked off. Oh yeah, I remember now. Have to leg it across the complex to Château Innsmouth, put up groceries and decide that no, Mac & Cheese is too much of an energy investment. Nuke food it is.

Tonight, I have no idea what's the plan? I'm more than a little worried about sleep, given last night's thought processes. I'm going to see about trying to get things on a more positive keel before bed, even if I wasn't too negative before the lights went out. I don't know, hopefully I can work something out. At least I get donuts tomorrow. Wish me luck on tonight.

State of the Fox

Another week has ended. Been a less than stellar week. Bad. stressful dreams, anniversaries of bad things happening to good people, and me finding myself low on cope and temper. At least I managed to knock out a ton of out of date tickets today at Carcosa Corp.

I've been more vocal on Facebook, it's easier to spit out a one liner. And since I don't have ssh access to remote from Carcosa, my usual workflow for LJ/Wordpress doesn't work. Plus I spend a lot more time writing these things than I do FB. Not leaving here though, it's just probably going to be a weekend posting vs daily the way I was. We'll see.

Had my quarterly pshrink visit, things are pretty normal. I do need to get a yearly physical before my next visit. Shouldn't be a problem. I may even try to find a GP vs going to Carenow for everything. Need to take better care of myself I think.

I've also offically decided to turn my gamer system into a new Linux workstation. I've picked up some additional RAM, and a new SSD and platter drive (6 TB for the price of 5). Next weekend I'll put my friends at Dallas Computer Consulting to work and have them install all the bits and test things, then I'll do the OS side of things. Then I'll probably spend the next weekend tweaking all the tweaks, importing everything and testing. If all goes according to plan, it will be a nearly seamless swap of systems (I'll leave oldDagon running for a while in case my plans fail). Then oldDagon will be repurposed as a home/backup server. Yay nerdery. For those who care, I'll be moving back to Ubuntu's Mate flavor from Linux Mint. Mostly so I can play the newer stuff coming in 16.04 next month. I'll probably reinstall Hydra at some point to go back to Linux Mint. Note, this has nothing to do with the security issues they've had. I just feel a need to move stuff around. I'm also pondering going to a more cutting edge kernel, instead of sticking with the Ubuntu defaults. We'll see how everything works first.

Weekend plans? Tonight is my usual, with a side of laundry to catch up on bedsheets. Tomorrow is a few errands,then social time with friends. Bad movies and pizza and stuff. Sunday is more laundry and more friend time. High content of resting. I also have books to read, so many books.

So that's the state of the fox, I'm not my best, but better than say a year ago. Hopefully after this weekend things will swing up again. It should. I have faith.