State of the fox

If you follow me on Facebook, you’ve already seen most of this.

It’s not been a good week. I had a near breakdown this week. I think I’ve tapered off my old med too fast, and between stress from helping a friend, bad sleep, fretting over the bill from my dental emergency and work, and the combination became a ‘perfect storm’ and well, I went pretty far down. I’m better now, functioning if not great. Little better each day, but still I have to fight the depression at least once or twice a day. It was bad enough I found reading to be tedious, and that’s one of those great signs that something is wrong.

But, on the plus side, I managed to not call in with ennui once this week. I’ve gotten stuff done, if not as much as I’d (or my work) would like. I’ve also found reading to be easier and more entertaining, reading classics like Lovecraft and Brian Lumley (the first modern day mythos writer I ever read). I’m sleeping better, not great but better. The plan is to try tapering off again when I’m under less stress. When that will be? I dunno. One tentacle at a time and all that.

So, it’s the weekend. And payday. Weekend plans are more friend helping, but nothing crazy like last weekend. Also, I’m probably going to go see ‘Wonder Woman’ because, it looks like a whole lot of fun. Tonight is watching ‘Life’ again, it’s currently on and it’s a lot of fun (for values of pentapods destroying humanity). Will probably stay up kind of late and try to regenerate tentacles with movies and geeking, then probably more Lumley or similar reading, and sleeping in if I can. Wish me luck, both with sleep and with getting better.

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