Some random thoughts. I've been having issues with sleeping, and with dreams. I'm having nights full of broken sleep, waking up multiple times a night. And when I do sleep, I have sad or anxious dreams and getting out of bed is really difficult. My attempts to fix this have either involved spiking up dopamine or serotonin before bed, or more often, going to bed earlier and earlier. I'm starting to think this (early to bed) is the problem. Maybe I'm spending too much time in REM sleep, where I'm mostly awake by 5-6 am, and I'm just idling in dreaming mode, and waking up repeatedly, which make the dreams more memorable. At least that's what my googling about sleep patterns and basic logic comes up with. So, tonight is an experiment. Going to stay up til about 10pm tonight (1-2 hours later than my sleep schedule lately), then take my meds and go to bed to read a little. I'm resetting my alarm for the last possible minute before I need to be up, so I can be at work in time for the morning meeting. Then we see. If I don't get enough sleep, well the next morning is the weekend, and I have no plans for Friday night. So if I'm tired, I can fight through it. And if it helps, make notes, then try again next week. Document all the way. And we see. If it helps, yay. If it doesn't, well, check my theory, check my research, come up with a new idea. That whole scientific method thing. Should do that more in my personal life.
So...I am my own experiment. Which probably isn't the best science, but it's
what I've got to work with at the moment. I do have a perfectly good
pshrink I can hand the results to after some time. We'll see. Later
I may experiment with invocations of Morpheus, Cthulhu, Hypnos, Nut and/or
Nyx. Just no self medicating, that will just in tears. Ok, wish me luck.